Mon, Jun 21, 2010 at 1:28 PM
howdy all from orange county
it's been a while since my last update so i'll bring ya'll up to speed as to what's been happening.
good news and prayers answered is that i got approved for financial aid in orange county! so, i'm really thankful to God (and for your heard prayers) for allowing this to happen so that i can get further treatment. it's definitely a load off for me and my family. :) once we got the application in, the whole process went quicker than the normal time it takes for someone to get approved. we also recently got approved for radiation treatment, so, God-willing, i'll be starting treatment this tuesday or wednesday and it will go on for 7 weeks (mon-fri). some side effects (which tend to arise after the 3rd week of radiation treatment)
been doing physical therapy a few times a week which has been helping me to loosen up my really stiff joints and weak muscles (mostly in my right leg). every time i go in for therapy, they start me on the stationary exercise bike and i thank God every time because He's allowed the PT to also be covered under the financial aid. it's weird, though, having to re-learn how to walk normally again and to re-gain certain muscle control that we don't even think about (under normal circumstances). i won't be playing any sports that require a lot of agility any time soon, but, good news is that i'll most likely be able to get back on my mountain bike in the future.
a couple weeks back, doc young, my radiation oncologist, said that there's a chance that i might become infertile after the radiation treatment because they'll be zapping my leg/pelvic area with x-rays for an extended amount of time. as a precaution, it was recommended that i go to a sperm bank to make a few deposits before the treatment. well, i did go and they did an analysis of my deposit during my first visit and it turns out that i have a low sperm count and of the sperm in that sample, most were inactive (sorry... tmi). this abnormal state could have been attributed to all the trauma that my body has undergone with all the scans and the two surgeries in that area or this could have been my natural condition all along.
the scientist dude at the bank said that if this condition persists, my future wife and i would most likely have to go through in-vitro fertilization to get pregnant. so, after discussing this with julia (we're not married yet, but, i hope we will be someday), we decided to forgo freezing my boys because the choice to doing in-vitro would compromise our personal convictions.
it was rather hard for both of us to accept the idea that we might not be able to have children by natural birth or even have the option.
however, i think julia and i have come to a point where we're continually trying to trust in God that he's working out the best for us (in this and all circumstances). AND, we still have hope of having our own kids because we've been and are both open to adoption (even before this most recent news).
God is still good and will always be.
i mentioned in my last email that God seems to be stripping away a lot of things in my current stage of life - my material possessions, my retirement, my health, my pride, and my future. again, my soul is laid bare. one might think that this state is dismal but it's actually ok, in fact, it's better than ok. i gotta tell you that when it's just you and God, there IS a sense of peace that can't be explained by our human understanding - because "peace" amidst dismal circumstances doesn't make any human sense.
thank you Jesus for allowing me access to this peace because you are the only way. thank you Holy Spirit for reminding and comforting me of this grace and peace so freely given to me even tho i'm undeserving.
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prayer requests
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that my cancer is completely eradicated from my body
that God's will be done in my life and those around me and in this world
thanks everyone for your prayers and support. can't do it with you!
with love
dennis :P
life update #17
| Dennis Yi <dennis.k.yi@gmail.com> | Mon, Jun 21, 2010 at 2:24 PM | |
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