life update #21 (sooo hungy!!!)

Dennis Yi	Mon, May 30, 2011 at 9:57 PM
howdy all don't feel like updating (cuz i'm hungry/cranky from fasting for a pet ct scan tomorrow) but thought it'd be good to send one anyways. i reallllllllllllllllly want some ramen right now (steaming salty/hot broth with noodles and meat).......     :`( most recent medical events: + nov 2010 pet scan - activity in my right leg (in the area where the original tumor was taken out); surgery and radiation seemingly didn't kill all the tumor in my right leg + dec 2010 biopsy done in my right inner groin area - came up positive; same "myofibroblastic sarcoma" that was seen in my left and right legs + march 2011 pet scan - no significant change in the activity/size of the tumor(s) in my right leg, therefore, doc can't justify amputating my right leg yet + scheduled pet ct scan (tomorrow), 5/31/2011, at 8am PST. ++++++++++++ how am i feeling? ++++++++++++ think i'm the most distant i've ever been from God as i am now.  i'm tired of Him not showing up in my healing. it's hard for me to trust Him and what the bible says about Him. perhaps my faith is rather shallow?  (i know... i know, it's a stark contrast to my last update several months ago).  still trying to trust in Him.  waiting for Him to show up.  :P by the way... i'd appreciate any "preachy" responses at a later time.  just lemme wrestle with God for a bit more.  thanks! i'm not in any pain and i'm able to drive and get around and do most things in "normal" life minus bike ride.  :( +++++++++++ in other news... +++++++++++ i'm pretty sure i got my masters in electrical engineering (this after 9 years since i first started!). funny story:  so, i was procrastinating studying for my masters comprehensive exam which consists of 4 questions, each representing one semester-long course.  i thought the exam was going to be in early may.  well, i found out april 1st that the test was going to be april 8th.  long story short, i basically had 3.5 days to study for the exam and by God's grace, i passed!  really thought it was going to be impossible. had the graduation ceremony this past weekend at SJSU and i should be receiving a diploma in a couple months.  :) anyhoo, gonna complain to God some more (i'm sure He'll humble me), think about food that i can't eat, and then go to sleep before pet ct scan tomorrow morning. thanks everyone for your prayers! with love dennis